Reminiscing

Music brings back memories, that indeed is true. On Glenn's playlist tonight, songs that are on repeat when I was still pregnant and when Cholo was still a few weeks old. Its not only the memories that comes back,but the feelings that can't be described when I feel Cholo moving in my tummy,the promises I made when I was alone talking to the baby in my tummy, the books I read to him at nighttime and the tears of happiness that flowed.
Thinking about those times and realizing what promises were kept and broken, got me teary eyed. I am not a perfect person, I am not a perfect mom, but all this time I am trying all the best that I can do to be worthy of Cholo's love and affection.
Words can't describe the feelings in my heart right now, but trust that I am still working to fulfill all the promises that I made before. My heart swells with pride and love to the boy that was given to us four years, 5 months and four days ago.
Im overwhelmed with gratefulness to the man who never left me at my worst, who is so proud of me inspite of my shortcomings and craziness, who accepts the way I am and who loves me unconditionally.
His playlist began with Bryan Adams' song To Really Love A Woman. He said its the song that keeps on playing in his head because it reminds him of me. He may not be showy,he may not be "kinikilig" with AlDub, he may look tough and heartless to others but for me,he's the most loving and sweetest  husband and dad. Others say they hope to find their "Alden", why would I look for someone like Alden when I already have my Glenn.
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Reflection

Most of the time I get tired of the job I have and and feels like our life is moving so slow to the top.. Are we really going up?

And then I sit and think of the life we had before, the hardships and tears that flowed, the fights and misunderstandings, the time that I needed a job and can't find one, it refreshes my feelings and makes me more grateful of all the things we have right now.. All bad things are in the past now, we've gone a few steps higher and making the most out of our lives together..

Thinking of everything makes me motivated to do better and my excitement grows as I wait for all the good news that came this week to happen..

How important it is to reflect and not think of negative things, refreshes the mind and makes you view things in a more positive perspective.

Seeing this little boy's smile makes me push and work harder.... <3

Cholo Just Turned One!!

        Exactly a year ago today, I gave birth to the most beautiful baby a mother could wish for... We named him Pocholo, our curly haired angel. 

Words cannot express my happiness when I first laid eyes on him, my heart sings with joy the first time I heard him cry and felt a sense of fulfillment the first time I held him in my arms.  
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Reminiscing the sleepless nights, when Glenn used to carry little Cholo and sing all kinds of songs just to make him sleep.. The first time we changed diapers, his first bath, his first smile and laughter, his first babbles, he imitate the words we were saying, he can say Daddy and Mommy clearly.. And when I say "happy" he says "happy" too! How he loves to crawl freely and walk by himself!

I can't believe how time flies so fast! I remember vividly the times when he was so little and now he's already one! I thank God for this wonderful blessing and for showing me what my life's purpose is. I'm grateful that even if I'm working, I don't miss out on my Cholobim's milestones.

I love you so much my little one, you make us all so happy and proud! Happy 1st Birthday!

The Best Year Of My Life

As the year goes to an end, I thought of all the good things that happened to my life this 2011. I can't thank God enough for all the blessings that he showered us. It gives me an overwhelming feeling thinking about how blessed I am in having a very understanding and patient partner in life, and a very handsome and bright baby boy.

Blessings have been showered to us all year long. At the start of 2011, in January, it had been confirmed that I am carrying a healthy baby boy in my tummy. In February, Glenn and I celebrated our 7th year anniversary. In March, I celebrated my birthday not only with Glenn but with his family and my family!

March had been the time that I needed to quit work to take care of my pregnancy. And even though I quit work, God never made us feel any hardships eventhough Glenn is the only one working. The duration of my pregnancy had been the greatest and happiest. And come July 10, I delivered an angel into this world!

And because of that little angel, I was able to make peace with one of the most important person in my life whom I treated as a mother ever since I was a child. That was one of the best highlights of this year for me.

Christmas was also memorable as it was the time that I was able to come home after a few years of being away. I came home and made the family much bigger with Cholobimbim in tow! I was glad that my family was as happy to see us especially Cholo whom they thought as the cutest!

And now that this wonderful year is coming to an end, I thank God for the big and small blessings that came our way. I am also thankful for the problems that we had, as it made us learn and realize things that made us better persons.

I thank the people who have been part of this wondrous year, to all my friends whose presence is not really necessary for me to feel that you are really with me.

To the so-called "friends" who are just there only when they remember,I thank you, for you are still part of my life.

To Carl (nanny mcphee), who just texted me right this moment to thank me for being there when he needed a shoulder when he had a problem, you know I'm just here, waiting for you to remember me.I'm just a text away and you know I would be more than happy to listen and give my advice if asked. I miss you girl :)

And to my family, I know I don't really say it, but always remember that I love you all so much and that you are always in my thoughts.

To the ever understanding and "pasensyoso" Glenn, I love you so much, even if I'm always pasaway.

And to the reason why I wake up in the morning, my Cholobimbim, Mommy loves you so much!! I am so proud of how you are growing, being a smart baby at this early stage of your life. I want to be the perfect mom to you, and I promise to take care of you the best way I can.

I LOVE YOU ALL AND MAY THIS COMING YEAR BE A FRUITFUL AND WONDERFUL YEAR FOR ALL OF YOU!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Christmas Wish Came True

After a few years of being away from home, finally, I was able to come home for Christmas and made our family bigger! And it wasn't just me and Glenn who came home,we brought Cholobimbim as an addition to our growing family!

I know how glad my Nanay was on that day! It has been in our prayers for us to be able to come back home, and finally, it was answered. One of the best things that happened to me this year.

On my next post will be the things that I am always thankful for, as God never fails to shower us with His greatness!

Thank You!!

Five Months Of Bliss

Today, we celebrate five months of bliss. Cholobimbim just turned five months today! We are glad that as each day goes, he becomes healthier, happier and smarter. I can say that I have never been this happy my whole life. Pocholo came at the right time, making us feel that God is really touching our lives.

Celebrated the day with food and family, thanked God for the blessing and filled our little home with laughter.

I can't believe Pocholo is growing up so fast! When he was still learning to turn over and lie on his tummy, I've seen his determination to hold his head high with the support of his elbows. I was so proud to see him work hard on that milestone! And now that he learned to turn over, he never stopped doing so and can even do it so fast!

Whenever we talk to him, it's as if he can really understand us, he blabs and talk like he's saying something. He can say "mam-me" "didi" and makes a lot of gurgling sounds. He even fakes his cough so we would pick him up when we put him in his stroller or crib. What a smart little baby we have!

Pocholo is showing a lot of baby tricks now and we can't wait for him to crawl and walk and talk and call us Mom and Dad. I know time flies so fast that's why we enjoy every single moment with Cholo, because one day will come that he will learn to walk and run and meet other people and I know that I would miss this time that he's still a baby.

Song For Pocholo

The morning cold and raining,
dark before the dawn could come
How long in twilight waiting
longing for the rising sun
ohoh ohoh Oh ooh

You came like crashing thunder
breaking through these walls of stone
You came with wide eyed wonder
into all this great unknown
ohoh ohoh Ohoooh Oohh

Hush now don't you be afraid
I promise you I'll always stay
I'll never be that far away
I'm right here with you

[Chorus]
You're so amazing you shine like the stars
You're so amazing the beauty you are
You came blazing right into my heart
You're so amazing you are...
You are

You came from heaven shining
Breath of God still flows from fresh on you
The beating heart inside me
Crumbled at this one so new
ohoh ohoh Oooh ooohhh

No matter where or how far you wander
For a thousand years or longer
I will always be there for you
Right here with you

[Chorus]
You're so amazing you shine like the stars
You're so amazing the beauty you are
You came blazing right into my heart
You're so amazing you are...

I hope your tears are few and fast
I hope your dreams come true at last
I hope you find love that goes on and on and on and on and on
I hope you wish on every star
I hope you never fall too far
I hope this world can see how wonderful you are

[Chorus]
You're so amazing you shine like the stars
You're so amazing the beauty you are
You came blazing right into my heart
You're so amazing...

You're so amazing you shine like the stars
You're so amazing the beauty you are
You came blazing right into my heart
You're so amazing you are...
You are

** to listen to the song, click here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W-xmLD85M8o **